are only certain very limited and special avenues of freedom open to me now, and it is useless to fight my way along where no issue is possible. This is true not only exteriorly but even interiorly and spiritually." - Thomas Merton from "The Intimate Merton" ; Merton’s voice, his support, intimate and overwhelming. Speaking directly to heart, calming ego - like a grandmother calming a hysterical child - bring it back around to the essentials: to love, to love, to love, to solitude, to presence, to body, to stillness, to obedience, to usefulness, to necessity, to interior study, to recognition of duty, to feeding oneself, to imperturbability, to accepting suffering gracefully, to negotiating complexity spaciously, to trust, to trust, to trust. Sometimes being exhausted is good - you trust because you have no energy left to not trust.