It’s odd that you can be well into your adult years and never bother to think about some things. Some things that other people think about you never will. Things that are on your mind all the time may never cross another person's. When you finally do get around to thinking about something you never have, or just start to see a recycled concept in a different light, it can be pretty strange. You ask yourself how you've ignored it so long, how something that made no difference before you can hardly ignore now. Maybe you've started to figure it out, maybe you've just brushed the surface, maybe it's something you can't really describe.